oh good lord, do i ever want a fucking soy burger!!! knowing i have the stuff to make it in my fridge is kinda killing me. so, i've started to detox/cleanse for 10 days. which means i drink a lot of water, a weird magic potion i make daily and peppermint tea(as a treat when i get too sick of the potion). when i was on my run this morning with the bentley i swore i was going to die. stopping occasionally to catch my breath and that never happens. i understand that taking out solid food for awhile will probably leave me light headed on occasion and apparently breathless. that being said, it is really important for me to prove to myself that i am in control of my life and not my urges, whims or crutches... it might seem small but it's really important to me. so i'll keep you posted on how this works out for me. in other news i'm going to santa cruz tomorrow to hang out with my beloved scully and the little redhead boy she grew in her womb. i f-ing love that kid. so i'm going to wake my punk ass up early and bus on down there. awesomely enough dangerrr and i will be shooting some photos in that area on saturday, so we're gonna meet up and get to the awesome down there.

ok, and for good measure i'll post a a blurb that totes inspired me today. and by inspired i mean helped convince me not to binge on hot peanuts and fried tofu.

"The same courage and pioneering spirit that prompts us to draft long-term life plans can aid us when we are compelled by circumstance or our own dreams to immerse ourselves in the unknown. Thoughts of setting out into territories unexplored can shake us to our very cores. Personal growth is nourished by the ground we break, however. When we must willingly embark upon a journey of exploration, calling upon the optimistic outlook that fuels our ambitions enables us to look into a veiled future with a hopeful heart. As we consider the unknown from a perspective of positivity, we’ll be more apt to muse upon the numerous rewards waiting for us rather than the possible pitfalls we may encounter."