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11:31am and all i've done is drink baliey's and eat ice cream |
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Written by Quinne Suicide
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Tuesday, 20 May 2008 10:20 |
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ah, what charmed life i lead. this weekend checked me. i think. today i feel great. i was sick all night. yuck. sick enough to end up sleeping on the couch since its closer to the bathroom then pillow mountain. although i started my tuesday off with booze and ice cream, rest assured the rest of my day will be full of mangos and drinking orange pedialite through a straw and cleaning my house. it seems if i try to make myself one way i immediately rebel. for example if i tell myself i will eat healthy i'll search out ice cream at 8am. what a jerk, eh! so the easy solution seems to be to not limit myself or tell myself what i can and can't do and it should all even out. i have no idea if any of this makes sense to anyone but me but whatever. yesterday i got my nails done, watched beetlejuice and cried over some serious shit. what a case of the mondays i had. today i have to clean, walk and wash my pup and work tonight before i go to SFO to get my friend joe who will be living at awesometown for a bit. i need a road trip to the desert. maybe alone. i dunno. i always think i need something. maybe i'm fine.
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I always feel better after doing something useful (housework etc).
Going with the flow rather than trying to box yourself into one pattern of behaviour sounds like a good idea, but you might not be able to help it.